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Excerpts From "Crystal
"On the outside, everything
seemed fine. But barely scratch the surface, and the chaos
of my living hell was frightening."
"I wanted my mom and dad
and I needed my son. I wanted everything to be different but
I couldn't see how to make that happen. As much as I wanted
to be with my family, I also wanted meth, and I knew I
couldn't have both. Meth didn't judge me regardless of how
much I needed it. Meth was always there and it always made
me feel good. Meth won."
"Spending time with a
crazy, paranoid person that I didn't like was nothing
compared to what other women have done for meth. I know
women who allowed themselves to be traded among men --
sometimes groups of them -- like baseball cards. The woman
went to the highest bidder, so to speak. Whoever could
provide the current "keeper" the most bang for their buck
became the new owner. And on and on it would go, because
once a woman is in that situation... And the thing is, none
of those women wanted to be that way. None of them would
ever have imagined, in their worst nightmare that something
like that could happen, especially not to them. No one wants
to lose her humanity. No one wants to be an addict."
"Every addict I know says
the same thing, in one way or another: their drug of choice
filled that empty space in their soul that nothing else
I recently got your Crystal Clean book on kindle and just
now finished it. I hope you don't mind me emailing you at
your cookie business email, but I didn't see any other to
send a message too.
My husband was a meth addict for 10 years, and while our
story is amazing (at least to me lol), I'll not go into all
that to keep this short, as I'm sure you have cookies to
make and a boy in a bug suit to love on (:
While I was a drug user for years, I never got into meth,
and I'm so thankful I never did. My husband has been clean
now, with no relapses, for a few days over 7 years, and I'm
so proud of him!!! It was fascinating to read your story and
get a glimpse at the mind of a meth addict. I couldn't
hardly put it down, actually. Right now, it is after 2am and
I'm going to regret staying up this late the night before a
busy day of church and 2 holiday gatherings, but I just
couldn't stop reading!!
Thank you for sharing your story...I can't imagine how hard
it was to write. I have my own dark years and skeletons
rattling in my closet, although I feel so blessed that, for
whatever reason, I didn't "go there" for the most part.
I hope this book touches many lives and helps those trapped
in that world. And I'm so glad you got out of it, your story
brings hope to a very dark world.
Have a blessed holiday,"
"Being a mom of a special
needs son (only child) and struggling to be everything to
that child, while barely hanging on yourself is such a
familiar story to me. While reading this book, it hit home
so much I had to stop reading it for moments at a time. So
real and writing was so descriptive, I had to separate her
feelings from my own in some regard.
Thank you for opening up to your readers and trusting us
with your story.
I picture you kind of like a female "Rocky" winning in the
end. Can't help but root for you and Andy"
"Rummaging in a trunk of
dark, shocking memories and sharing them with others takes
full on courage. It takes an incredibly strong woman with
something powerful to tell.
Kim Wollenburg is that woman. And her
memoir, Crystal Clean: A mother's struggle with meth
addiction and recovery, is that story.
She takes us on a nail biting ride
through the dark tunnel of Meth addiction. When we emerge
from the tunnel, and catch a quick breath, she rushes us
full blast down curvy, treacherous roads. We dig our
fingernails into her life and hang on with her, hoping and
praying she doesn't crash.
Sadly, she does. But thankfully this
is only the beginning.
Something incredible happens when she
hits bottom. Through her story, we are shown how the tender
human spirit can literally pick itself up by the bootstraps,
shake off a rusty, addiction ridden life and with silent,
capable hands write a new, shiny one.
Kim's powerful writing style is
honestly raw, riveting and infused with hope. A must read!"
-- Dorraine Darden
"What an insightful and bravely
written book. What Kim has shared is an amazingly helpful
understanding to anyone who has been touched by the
outreaching fingers of meth addiction and mental illness.
And to those who haven't, a good reminder that not everyone
or everything is as it may seem. She allows you to visit an
"underworld" that normally only 'users/dealers' get to see.
I have never read anything that gave me so many 'OH GOD!'
moments! Her story drops "bombs" that you just don't see
To be as completely honest as she was
in her story takes a kind of bravery that many people don't
possess. Through it all she never loses sight of the love,
concern and admiration she has for her son. Which is
something that is usually stripped away by this terrible
drug. While fighting her demons, she will make you laugh,
cry, sigh and gasp. An amazing story that is WELL worth
reading and recommending. Good JOB Kimbo!"
"A beautiful memoir about one mom's
struggle with her lot in life and how she chose to deal with
it using illegal drugs. It's told in a brave, clear manner
with no careful wording. I loved reading more about Andy and
was absolutely rooting for Wollenburg through it all."
"What an amazing story!! I have read a
lot of memoirs of addiction and this is one of the best.
Totally heart wrenching, unbelievably raw and honest, this
is one book I just couldn't put down.
Thank you Kim for writing such an honest book. I wish you
and your beautiful son many more happy years of recovery."
"This book is very easy to read. It
gave me a great insight into my son's thinking processes.
Being able to really understand that he is the only one that
can make a difference in his life has helped me regain my
own life. Thank you, Kim, for sharing your struggles with us
- you have made a difference in my family's life!"
"Crystal Clean is a book I couldn't
put down about an amazing woman who was once completely
immersed in the world of crystal meth. If you didn't know
that she made it through the other side (because she is
telling her own story), you might not believe she will come
out of it alive.
Kim lays out
her life story, with memories that help show her state of
mind as she started using different drugs and then meth. But
it's not a "woe is me" story, and she doesn't dwell on the
bad things that contributed to her mental state. It is
ultimately a story about how a mother's love can overcome
the terrible odds associated with this addiction.
Personally, I could relate to Kim because I am the same age
and also grew up in Boise. I had some similar experiences,
but my life took a different path. It is thought-provoking
to see how the stories of our lives could have easily been
interchanged if just a few small difference were switched
between her background and mine.
Crystal Clean is written vividly enough that I could see the
story like a movie. I thoroughly recommend this book."
"I went to school with Kim. After many
years of being out of touch, we reconnected on Facebook
where I eventually gathered enough to assume that she was a
mother, a writer, and perhaps a burgeoning business woman
who made and decorated some amazing-looking cookies. When
Kim made the announcement about her book coming out, I was
naturally interested. The title surprised me; I had no idea,
and I wanted to know more about her story. That was my
primary interest in the book. This alone made the book
captivating for me. What I didn't expect was (1) how much
insight the book gave me about meth addictions, and the
situations my co-workers face on a more regular basis than
I, and (2) the support and encouragement I felt to continue
working with and through my own issues.
First, I am pretty naive about drug and alcohol addictions.
If this is where you are at, and you are a parent, teacher,
or general citizen who just wants to learn more, I think
Kim's honesty throughout this story will help you to
understand more. In my case, I have frequently felt a little
impatient with some of my counselor-co-workers when they
immediately assume there is a meth addiction involved, or
when they always bring things back to an addiction.
Throughout her story, Kim makes it clear how easy it was to
hide her addiction, and to even work, and seem 'normal' to
On the other hand, while I don't know much about drug and
alcohol addictions, I do have experience with what it is
like to try to overcome an addiction, as well as all of the
other related issues behind addictions such as self-esteem,
co-dependency, and so on. Kim's story about her own
struggles, and eventually, her honest efforts to work on her
own issues, and to create a better life for herself and her
son, is a beacon--a message of hope and encouragement--for
anyone else trying to do the same. The feelings and emotions
that she describes and expresses are real, and I could
identify. For this reason, I am most grateful for Kim's
book. Her story has been an inspiration to me, and a
reminder about some things I needed to be reminded of.
Crystal Clean touched me on many levels. It's one of those
books you put down at the end, sigh deeply, and say "wow!"
Thank you, Kim, for sharing your story!"
-- Rebecca Ford
"I am amazed this woman is still
alive. Different from the other books about addiction that
I've read. She's inspiring and I would recommend this book."
-- Amanda Pelletier
"Excellent book -- was hard to put it
down. Really gave me an insight of how incredibly miserable
it would be to be addicted to meth or any drugs."
-- JoAn Walston
"I started out by reading the preview
and ended up downloading the Kindle reader software for my
laptop so that I could continue reading. Kim bravely shares
all the gory details of her struggle with a nasty drug. You
can't help but feel how much love she has for her son, Andy
and you root for them the whole way through.
I can't really find words sufficient to express how much
this story moved me.
Thank you, Kim, for sharing your story with the world. You
are an inspiration!"
"I could not put this book down. As a
recovering meth addict and mother of a disabled child
myself, I could completely relate to Kim. Your story is so
inspiring. Having been clean and sober for 2 years now I
know the struggles of rebuilding your life. Thank you for
sharing your story and giving those of us dealing with this
addiction hope. May all your hopes and dreams come true."